"Experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted."

High Flight

Oh! I have slipped the surly bonds of Earth
And danced the skies on laughter-silvered wings;
Sunward I’ve climbed, and joined the tumbling mirth
of sun-split clouds, — and done a hundred things
You have not dreamed of—wheeled and soared and swung
High in the sunlit silence. Hov’ring there,
I’ve chased the shouting wind along, and flung
My eager craft through footless halls of air....

Up, up the long, delirious, burning blue
I’ve topped the wind-swept heights with easy grace
Where never lark nor even eagle flew—
And, while with silent lifting mind I’ve trod
The high untrespassed sanctity of space,
Put out my hand, and touched the face of God.

Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Bitter sweet and strange
Finding you can change
Learning you were wrong

Certain as the sun
Rising in the East
Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Beauty and the Beast

Its not about going back

Never again can you go to the past and relive, or change it. All you can do is change the present and future. It is not about re-making the threads of old, yet instead making the threads into something new. All that we create we can destroy, all we destroy can be rebuilt. It is not that it will be the same, or ever compare, but if you have hope, trust, and if you are willing to take a chance, you can make it better. But would you like to live without chance? yes you may not make it if you take a chance, it may not work. And many years from now, dying in your bed, would you trade all your days, to go back and just take that chance, to give into hope? Only you can answer that for yourself.

I may have started to go crazy today, but I am pretty sure someone else is crazy too. Here's to being nuts. I need to meditate and clear my brain of this insanity.

Saw my Ex today.

So she probably doesn't care or is angry that I stopped and made sure she was ok since I saw her and her mom had been in a small fender bender. Maybe some people don't understand why one would still care about their ex, but I just wanted to see if she was ok. That was all, nothing suspicious, nothing crazy. Just wanted to see if I could help, and to make sure her and her mom were alright. Maybe it wasn't the wisest thing to do this one year mark after we have broken up, but you know what, it was the right thing to do.

I can't wait till....

first snow fall.