Mesopotamia

Two years ago on this day I set foot in the land of Babylon. While in that land a good friend told me something. "Don't fuck this up dawg. You'll hate yourself if you do." SSgt Dominic Gonzales. You know what, Dom is a really smart dude.

I am...

waging war on my room

And my room still has an upper hand, but I will take the advantage soon.

Other than that, its been difficult being a manager and trying to lead people who are twice my age. Even if my logic is bullet proof and it is in the greater interest for the individuals and the organization as a whole I find I get argued with both on the premise of the change or semantics. Just cause you are older than me doesn't mean you are wiser. I got a Minor in Management and 6 years of military experience, but to these people experience and academic study doesn't matter. The fact that I am half their age means I am not mature.

I love Space: Above and Beyond. Great Sci Fi! but like Firefly, Fox canceled it after first season.

In which we stand.

move forward...

I figured something out. I really don't know if you read this anymore, I think you do. But it really doesn't matter.

Amy,

I love you more than life itself. But really I am so sorry for not respecting you, for wanting you to love me back that I forgot to love you. I forgot one thing, I want you to be happy. And if you don't want me in your life, but that makes you happy, that makes me happy. I shouldn't be mad if I see you with another man, not at all. I may not have been right for you, may not have been good enough, or just not mature enough at that point in my life. And if there is someone else that is better for you, I want you to be with that person.

I am telling you this, because you will always be apart of me, and apart of my heart, you will never die. I love you, and since I love you more than anything in this world, I also want you to be free. With or without me.

Always and forever,

your friend,

Will

I don't want to be the one to say goodbye
But I will, I will, I will
I don't want to sit on the pavement while you fly
But I will, I will, oh yes I will

Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back
The only way to really know is to really let it go
Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back to me

I don't want to be the first to let it go
But I know, I know, I know
If you have the last hands that I want to hold
Then I know I've got to let them go

Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back
The only way to really know is to really let it go
Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back

I still feel you on the right side of the bed
And I still feel you in the blankets pulled over my head
But I'm gonna wash away, oh I'm gonna wash away everything til you come home to me

Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back
In the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back

Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back
The only way to really know is to really let it go

Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back to me
You're gonna come back to me
You're gonna come back to me

For you my dear

I am what ever you need me to be. You'll hunt me, you'll condemn me, sick the dogs on me. Because that's what needs to happen. Because sometimes the truth isn't good enough. Sometimes people deserve more. Sometimes people deserve to have their faith rewarded.

So we'll hunt him, because he can

take it. Because he's not our

hero...

...he's a silent guardian, a watchful

protector... a dark knight.

the world has been flipped up side down. I feel like I am in the black pearl as it is trying to sail to the other side. oh my.

color blind?

Still just

Slow dancing in a burning room....

Falling Rain

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain
Telling me just what a fool I've been
I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain
And let me be alone again

The only girl I care about has gone away
Looking for a brand new start
But little does she know
That when she left that day
Along with her she took my heart

Rain please tell me now does that seem fair
For her to steal my heart away when she don't care
I can't love another when my hearts somewhere far away

The only girl I care about has gone away
Looking for a brand new start
But little does she know that when she left that day
Along with her she took my heart

[Instrumental Interlude]

Rain won't you tell her that I love her so
Please ask the sun to set her heart aglow
Rain in her heart and let the love we knew start to grow

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain
Telling me just what a fool I've been
I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain
And let me be alone again

Oh, listen to the falling rain
Pitter pater, pitter pater
Oh, oh, oh, listen to the falling rain
Pitter pater, pitter pater

I hope

you get to make a wish upon that star.

death

slowly flows into my veins

like ink slowly passing through water

reaching through my body

like a black hand

It takes my breath, but not my soul.

Rest is what I need.

The flu sucks.

its a two way street. funny.

I've been searching for you
I heard a cry within my soul
I've never had a yearning quite like this before
Now that you are walking right through my door

All of my life
Where have you been?
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

A sacred gift of heaven
For better, worse, wherever
And I would never let somebody break you down
Nor take your crown, never

All of my life
Where have you been?
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And everytime I've always known
That you were there, upon your throne
A lonely queen without her king
I longed for you, my love forever

All of my life
Where have you been?
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

All of my life
Where have you been?
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

All of my life
Where have you been?
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

I wonder if I'll ever see you again
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

I wonder if I'll ever see you again
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
I wonder if I'll ever see you again